Often it happens, what is want to say to someone – remains unsaid. That silence and mum for years builds up in our hearts and minds. Here is a series of “Unposted Letters” which will feature emotions – feelings – thoughts of people who have something to say.
Mom,
When I sat down to write this I thought about writing a thank you , I love you, and will miss you note. While all those are true, and go without saying, I find myself at a loss for words ,which doesn’t happen very often.
I laughed, realizing how appropriate it is, for both of us that clarity is now the dish served cold. On second thought it is presumptuous of me to assume that your clarity is as stone cold. I would be selling you short if I lumped your seemingly endless capacity to take a hit in with my new found acceptance of who I was and why I was so happy.
It’s important that you understand – you make me happy. My thank you is for making me different. For opening my eyes, for making me think, question and imagine. You planted a little seed, so long ago. Sometimes you forgot to water it, sometimes it almost died, in the end, your kindness patience, and nurturing paid off. It took most of a lifetime, yet it finally bloomed.
You had so many dreams. You pictured your life differently. You had no idea you were going to grow the perfect flower. Thank you for making me bloom, for creating something special. We’re so much alike. We’ve both made mistakes that at times crush us with their weight. I forgive you, as you have forgiven me. What’s more important is I’ve forgiven myself; you have to do the same. You need to know that there is at least one person who understands all your dusty little corners. You need to know how beautiful they are when the sunlight hits them. I doubt what I have become would have been possible without your dust bunnies in my flower pot.
Thank you for stumbling and picking yourself up. Thank you for getting a little crazy at times, and for never going completely mad. Thank you for standing by me at the darkest of times, and believing I would pull through. Thank you for hardly ever rolling your eyes when I talk politics or aliens. Thank you for teaching me that Red Winged Blackbirds only nest in bulrushes. You planted a magic bean, instead of a beanstalk, you grew me.
I couldn’t be happier. I’m going to miss you so much. I can’t imagine life without you nearby.
Guest post writer : Notes-to-Ponder
Thank you for posting my thoughts. 🙂
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Tears prickle…what a lovely letter, one any mother would love to receive and many a child could have written..truely beautiful!
I totally agree…
Beautiful.
Indeed..
It was a beautiful letter. 😀 For this amazing idea of unposted letter, I have nominated you for the Super Sweet Blogger Award. Do check it out here: http://saunved.wordpress.com/2013/05/03/awardtimeformanyandme/
This is really, really sweet and beautiful.
I have nominated you for the Awards!
Here is a link:
http://writingisthesupremesolace.wordpress.com/2013/05/05/best-moment-award-and-the-wordpress-family-award/
Thank you so much! I am truly humbled!!
My Pleasure Sakshi! You truly deserve these awards!
Your post is one of the most beautiful I have ever read! It reminded me of the last time I saw my mother alive in the hospital, she could not speak, but she heard every word my heart poured into her ears, much the same as yours, along with many apologies, but always how much I always loved her! We shared some happy tears together along with some beautiful smiles! And that is the way I will always remember her not sick but so beautifully lovely and smiling at me! Your post was a true blessing today for me Sakshi! Thanks for refreshing my heart…god bless you always my sister!
Wendall – I hesitated at first, not sure if I should give Sakshi my letter to publish. Reading your comment shows I did the right thing. Knowing you had that moment with your mother makes me smile, not all of us are lucky enough to have that connection.
I wrote this post called “Regret”
http://notestoponder.wordpress.com/2012/11/28/regret/
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What a beautiful post.
Thank you for visiting my blog. 🙂
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That was a beautiful post. My mother and my mother-in-law are both gone. I doubt that I told either one that I loved them often enough.
One must not live with that regret. Remember them in your prayers.. Love may be unsaid, but it doesn’t die.